Finally

Hummm, finally, i have the strength to get this all over with.. after a long discussion, i've realized that my choices were right. :) i'm so happy for this, and i'm so happy that finally i got the other pieces of my life back together. got a new things for everything. from this day on, i will go on with the new life i'm having right now.. not gonna go back to the past that was a fake..

I've done with the challenge to decide for myself, and now i just leave it to God to do the rest. hopefully everything will be the best for me, and everything will turn out great as i expected.

Regrets always comes next

Have u ever heard a statement about "regrets always comes next?" i know that words pretty well. i've been living a life full of regrets. i once think that my previous life is the best life i could ever get. i was blinded by then. i always thought that my life can't be better than my previous life. i was wrong... i've made a decision that i have to leave all my past behind, and go on to achieve a life that's far more better than this. Up ahead there will be something better for me. for my life, for my love life, or even my career life.

Now i realize i was regreting a lot of things.. but now, i'm going to stand up tall, and put all my regrets behind. i will never regret the decision that i'm making now. i got a lot to left behind, my past life, my past love... and i have to be sure that i can't go back to the same stupid hole again. i was stupid i admit, blinded by something or someone, who i always thought will be the very best part of my life. but i was wrong... i'm certain that i was wrong. because all my happiness behind was a fake.

He/it can't even make me smile. He/it said that he needed help to love me. is it usual? If you love someone, you don't need any help to reach and defend them rite? If you love someone deeply, u don't have to learn how to make them happy and how to put a smile on their face. it's mutual and natural.

That mistakes puts me in a point where i have to go forward, and never look back, and having no regret at all to know that it might be the very best part of my life that i left behind. I've made a decision, and i don't want to put it aside. i'll go on, and i'll be thankful enuf to know that my next life will be more worth living than my previous life... and God helped me to make this decision, so i hope i'll never regret this decision i've made...

Is it happiness that i feel right now?

I often heard some words that can make me think and try to pursue my dreams, i got the words from a friend, from a novel i read, or even a billboard accross the street i've walked in. It always comes to one thing that is always possible in every others life too.. Happiness didn't come by itself, but it will come if you try hard enough to pursue it.

That's true, been there, done that.. i used to sit in the dark and thinking about something, some guy, or even some friends that i thought will be my happiness, and i was blinded. just because i think their good enuf to be my happiness, but that doesn't mean that they are my happiness. blinded of something that time could heal, and blinded by something that life could deal.

I was just wondering, if i left all the standard happiness and pursue more happiness, is it too much to ask? because this condition of happiness really confusing... I know, i want more than this.. I know this is not the kind of happiness i try to accomplish, i know, there's someone or something out there, who can gv me more happines than the one i already hv rite now...

That's why i've made up my mind, to leave all the fake happiness behind, and try to pursue the happines that i want... help me God.